I'm fueled by the want and need to climb out of the black hole I've been in for the past year. Over my dark times, I've attempted many things none of which have been giving me the results I wanted. My career and personal goals are quite large and nothing seems to really have a clear ending or future and the thought of this uncertainty is both thrilling and nerve wrecking. I've taken up projects and connected with people having high expectations that have been let down over and over again. Who's to blame?
So ladidadida. I'm on my way to discover and create new things, to develop different perspectives and view things from a different POV, to draw inspirations and experience life outside of a tunnel context. We all have issues with control and our attempts to be in charge of our own destinies but sometimes we have to let go. No more closed dialogues between me, myself, I, and the rest. There's great issues with perception now a days and while we live in a society that is so connected, versatile, fickle, active, informed, controversial, and loud, the way we see and perceive reality is mixed up among these things. There are people out there who are very talented and smart and are capable of keeping up; there's others, like me, that are confused and overwhelmed.
So now, with a new found purpose, I can only hope to make the beginnings of an incredible body of work capable of transcending some barriers of time and if not, capable of changing through time to reveal things I might have overlooked and/or to connect with new meanings and contexts. Wish me luck!
You can clean around the wound, but if you want it to heal, it just takes time.
- Future Islands, Lyrics from Balance
